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Quality: 1080p | Release date: December 6, 2019 |
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Duration: 54 min | Original title: Я не феминистка |
#DecolonizeResistExist + I have been pondering as to why people in general (yt and poc) think it’s important to use the word shamanic to sell spirituality. Why people think is extremely important they are seen as “shamans” to be taken more seriously or for people to believe if they are “shamans” they are definitely going to “heal me” + The fact that people have used this word to create fakeness and sell lies, makes me not want to be considered a Shaman. I stay away of anything that becomes part of the status quo mainstream brainwashing lies. + I’m not a shaman and I will never ever want to be considered a shaman. Wow!! What a fucking responsibility for people having to pretend all the fucking time. I mean if all these so called “shamans” are part of reality, are complicit with the systems of oppression, are part of the problem (like all of us) I don’t think those people have anything to teach me. You see I go out and I learn more from the homeless, “dangerous”people, hurt people, alcoholic, drug abusers and all the misfits out there than from any “shaman” that can do fucking rituals and ceremony, charges me money and I don’t see they are actually doing the actual work + Being a shaman today is bluff and fake shit. I’m not a shaman. I’m a curandera a witch not a good witch sometimes and sometimes I’m good. It all depends. I don’t heal anyone nor I will do rituals and mandala flowers to tell you this is the way to connect with yourself. If I were to tell you, you need something external to create that I would be selling lies. + Life is a ritual constantly. We live in ceremony connecting with our dark or light. But it happens everyday. It’s okay. We need to get in touch with that. + I don’t need anything external connect with myself. It’s all in me. I have done all the rituals, ceremonies, flower mandalas, followed emails that I got about that new moon ritual to attract love 😆😂😝 + I have tried it all. I’m 42 years old. At this time I can tell you. It’s all in here. Yes! We have lost track and we just need to get back to that. But believe me. Don’t buy into the lies of everybody with the label as “shaman” it’s corrupted now.
#DecolonizeResistExist + We can’t change anything external to us before we look within ourselves first. + ....and FYI social media “activism” is fake. Only selling more division and hate to the masses. When I see a bunch of privileged people of color talking about the suffering of people with no privilege, I can’t take them seriously. Acquiring followers and likes in the name of “activism” is only a performative way “to seem to care.” While they live a very comfy life, when I see many traveling all over the world but then again they seem to care about others suffering right?!?! Oh! But when white people do something “wrong” they are ready to attack and tell them how they are perpetuating white supremacy, it’s always easy to judge others than take a look at ourselves. + Check out my NEW article on my Patreon page. Link in bio.
#DecolonizeResistExist + I have been feeling really happy to not have been so fixated on social media. A lot of shifts happening, and being in this space has given me the opportunity to see how I was being sucked in by this delusional state of being + I am not going to be managing two Instagram accounts. I barely have time for one. Therefore this account will be shutting down by December 31st. + I will only use my other account @adecolonizationmovement I will continue to post here just to update everyone that if you want to keep following my work you can go check the other account. If this is the time to move on from my space is okay and you can unfollow. + I’m shifting since I performed a limpia a month ago. I’m still adapting to this new way of being and working a lot behind the scenes to be able to still put my work out there but being less dependent on social media. + In my account @adecolonizationmovement you can subscribe to my newsletter which will be coming out November 1st with all the new information about my work. + My podcast will be coming out on November 1st as well. I’m talking about whether we can fight division and find equity by causing more division and inequality. If you haven’t subscribed you can check it out on the link of my other page. + We have been out of power for almost a week. It’s good. Been able to get shit done. + I’m from the lands we know as Mexico and I grew up without having a lot of luxuries this country supposedly offers so for me this makes me feel like home 😝 + Have a beautiful day. One thing I’m enjoying about not having electricity is that I’m using nature as my guide. Wake up early with the sunrise and I end up my day at dark time. Just like we used to live.
#DecolonizeResistExist + It took many years for me to fully stand in my power. To not base my worth on what people think of me. + I always speak of how powerful it is to stand in our power, because when that happens nothing will ever have power over us. Nothing will dim our light. + I’m definitely blooming from where I once bled, and there is nothing at this moment that is more powerful than my Own Power and My Own Truth. + Some people call that egocentricity, selfishness, and many other adjectives. I call it NOT GIVING FUCKS. 🤘🏾 + Art by Jade Leyva
#DecolonizeResistExist + In 13 days I turn 42 years old and I feel younger than ever. + Age is a state of mind and I have decided to break my domestications in regards to age. I have never felt better. I love being in my physical body and I love my mental, spiritual state. + I’m thankful for all the knowledge I have acquired through these 42 years of life + My new year is approaching and many physical changes happening in my life. Ready to embrace it all. + I feel proud of everything I have achieved. +
#DecolonizeResistExist + We are facing apocalyptic times and no matter how much time we spend on our devices trying to “share truth” it will only take REAL ACTION to make a change + It seems to me that the “connection” that is happening in these spaces is creating a very delusional idea about what it truly means to be CONNECTED as humans. + I see many people sharing about everything that’s happening in the world, but no matter how much time we spend on social media. No matter how many followers we have. TRUTH is we are not creating any change. + We are facing the destruction of our earth, which was caused by us. As we lose that connection we are becoming even more distant from one another. + Maybe it was all part of the plan of the monster of capitalism. The more we are divided not only by race but also on a nurturing physical level as humans, the easier is going to be to control us, which will allow the destruction of Mother Earth. + It’s ironic to see white people who corrupt traditions which belong to the Amazon people, white People who have occupied the lands of Hawaii, or any other lands, speak about the atrocities that are happening in those places via social media. It’s ironic to see burning man people speak about how important is to be vegan, or to see them being proud of owning a Prius (which btw electric cars are fucking stupid and don’t help the environment when every ten years you have to change the battery, which is expensive and it’s not biodegradable. So now we’ll have landfills full of those batteries jajajajaj the stupidity of people is mind blowing) + We all are part of the problem and unless we start paying attention within ourselves and see what we each one of us is doing, unless we can take a moment to help our neighbors (we don’t have to go to foreign lands anymore) not much is changing. + We need to start taking care of our backyards first and foremost, and unless you are free of any destruction towards the planet, don’t act all entitled with your “fake activism”
#DecolonizeResistExist + I will leave this here for a moment. Don’t want his picture on my page. But I needed this message to be out there + Whether you voted for him or not. Whether you voted for killary or others Whether you see him as your president or not. Donald trump is the perfect representation of how fucked up this country is. + He unveiled the darkness YT people from this country had been trying to cover up for hundreds of years. + The darkness is out and no matter the color of your skin. Anyone who feels proud of being a us American is part of the problem. + The USA isn’t a great nation, it never was and it never will be. The only way it will be is when Indigenous people are able to take over their lands. + The way I see it as an outsider of this fucked up society is that is not only his fault. + I think it’s time for US Americans to take responsibility for their actions as well. You have been living in a country that creates wars to kill innocent people to take over their lands and their resources. + So you, US Americans can have mangos and avocados all year long. So you can have access to technology. So you can have your bottled water and your fancy cars. One thing I have learned about this society, us Americans really care about their fucking cars, it gives them status 😝🤦🏽♀️🤮 I think it’s time us Americans take responsibility as well. + While there is demand from you us citizens the supply will come to you no matter the cost. + You are the ones who create the demand. So when are you us citizens gonna take fucking responsibility? + #impeachallusaasweknowit
#DecolonizeResistExist + If I’m not triggering something in you. I am not sharing my medicine in the right way. I’m the daughter of Itzpapalotl. I used to have another account that Instagram decided to silenced. It was weird. It’s not that I have thousands of followers nor I am #instafamous but for some reason what I have to say it’s threatening for some. Annoying. Upsetting. Amazing. Inspiring. Full of shit. Lies. Hatred. Anger. Bla bla bla bla + Oh I know! But I don’t care what people think of me nor my medicine or anything that has to do with who I am and my experience. + I don’t live in hate and I don’t have to explain this to people but it’s funny to see how people think they have me figured out. Jajajajaja. Muahahahaha!!! 🧟♂️👹👽 + I’m a non bullshit speaker and I share my experience. I will talk about things that will trigger many. Some might love some of what I share and then one day they will read something that will trigger them. + Itzpapalotl is fierce, and powerful. She is the mother goddess of BIRTH and DEATH. She is a ferocious skeleton warrior who presides over the realm of Tamoanchan, the place where humans were created from blood, and bones stolen from Mictlan, realm of the dead. Itzpapalotl presides over the paradise realm inhabited by women who died in childbirth and stillborn infants. She is a shamanic goddess and a powerful sorceress. + Like I have said it many times. I carry the medicine of very powerful people. As I immerse in my own lineage with my sacred blood life has shifted. + I will talk about this on my next podcast “cultural genocide” this will be my new way of talking about “cultural appropriation.” + We all have lost the connection with our sacred blood. I feel this is the way to go back to connect with her by embracing our lineage without the need to cause cultural genocide. We are losing our traditions and our identities. All of us!! + I am sharing my human experience in a public space, I’m not expecting to change the world. I don’t know how that’s even possible. I don’t know if we will create a change. Seems things are getting worse. + I love life but I am NOT BLIND.
#DecolonizeResistExist + AGING. It feels so good to me. I’m so confident in my skin, in my body. I love my white hair. I love my wrinkles. I’m embracing the change of my blood cycle. + I’m feeling way more empowered at this age than when I was in my 20’s still domesticated and colonized as fuck. Believing all the crap that was given to me by this fucked up society. + I’m not afraid of aging nor dying. I’m actually embracing every single moment of my life. + At the end we all are going to die and all the time we waste on bullshit isn’t coming back. + I’m shifting and my voice is gaining even more power. I truly don’t care what anybody thinks. + Did I pay thousands of dollars to get to this space? No I DIDNT. I just listened to myself and I was able to get all the domestication out of my life. + All the money I spent in the “spiritual fake movement” didn’t help me for shit. On the contrary it only created a delusional world for myself. + Empowerment doesn’t cost any money. It’s within ourselves. We just choose to stay disempowered
Reason 4️⃣ #iamnotafeminist. Gender roles are a good thing. Feminists say they are sexist. How can I support that message? I’m not cooking and cleaning all the time after a long day of work. I’d rather have my woman do that for me. I’ll happily do my part though. Double tap if you love gender roles and check out this shirt from the link in bio! — #feminism #feminist #feminismiscancer #antifeminist #feministart #misogyny #prolife #lol
#DecolonizeResistExist + It feels good to find my voice again. Is different though. + I told this to my partner the other day. He is a yt man. + Me: “I’m feeling more and more compassionate towards yt people.” + Him: “What?!?!?” + Me: “Don’t get me wrong I still can’t stand all the love & light stupid yt people, but I see poc doing the same thing.” 🤷🏽♀️ + “At the end I just feel humans can be despicable, regardless the color of their skin” + I’m 42 years old and I feel I’m finally growing to be a better human in all aspects. + Today I’m 100% sure that if we are to create a change we have to include everyone. It’s not easy and healing for me is the answer. + Not even love! + My work is shifting and Healing will be my main focus on my decolonization work. If you are interested in working with me. Let me know. I don’t follow any protocols but I do know I’m a curandera. + For those who have sent me messages I’ll get back to u soon. I have been working non stop in obtaining a state cannabis license, which is almost there. Yes I’m a smarty pants as well 👩🏽💻I have to do capitalistic shit to make money to be able to follow my dreams. 🤷🏽♀️🙅🏽♀️ + #disruptingminds #liberation
#DecolonizeResistExist + I don’t treat any white People as heroes for speaking up about issues that were CAUSED to begin with by White People. + Is their JOB to do that. Is their JOB to speak up against racism, or any other social issues that affect people of color or the planet. + We know the white supremacy system we all live in is run to benefit white People the most, so for white People to speak up isn’t a RADICAL thing to do. + Indigenous people on the other hand have been fighting against capitalism and colonialism for hundreds of years and they are still the least heard voices. They are still put way far back in regards to their rights. + Nobody cares if they want clean water or they want their lands back. + I get some people would say, what about UNITY?!?? There is no unity while indigenous people get treated less than humans while white people benefit from the effects colonialism has left on the lands we know as the Americas. + There is no UNITY when is only white privileged people the ones that can speak up about STRIKES and they won’t get killed nor put in jail for speaking up. + As an indigenous woman that has seen my people suffer, that I know first hand what capitalism and colonialism does to my people, I won’t be here applauding a white girl for doing something that’s the job of every single white person to do!! + Truth is strikes like this are just fucking jerk off circles which continue to support the same systems that are affecting our planet and indigenous people. U think this strike is truly gonna save the planet? 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
#DecolonizeResistExist + When I started embracing my Anger and I let go of any guilt or judgment I found myself more connected with all of who I am and it transformed me. + Why is people so afraid of anger? Specially “spiritual people” 🙅🏽♀️🤷🏽♀️
#DecolonizeResistExist + When you buy into the idea (literally and figuratively) that you need something external to find yourself isn’t EMPOWERMENT at all. + Capitalism controls every aspect of our lives. When we think CONSUMPTION is going to bring us happiness, empowerment and self realization then we are completely lost + Everything we need is inside ourselves. It takes time to reach that state of awareness, but the easy path is not what teaches us about ourselves. It’s the hard lessons. + Today we want everything ready on a pre-packaged way. Easy to digest and at the tip of our fingers. + My ancestors created one of the most advanced civilizations. Their technology was super advanced and I’m going to confidently say that even more advanced than today as they paved the path for the next generations. Their discoveries happened because they took the time to study nature. + Yes!!!We need to take time to know ourselves, it’s messy, not easy and no matter how many life coaches, books, crystals, incense we burn, how many empowerment talks or workshops we attend. If we don’t truly look inside we are only supporting capitalism and it’s lies. We are supporting what makes us disconnect from ourselves. + The empowerment movement makes us lazy and glamorizes what it truly is to know ourselves.
#DecolonizeResistExist + Trauma. I was going through communications from the father of my kids and his attorney when we were going through our divorce, I had to look up something. + I was just going through the emails quickly, but I needed to sort of checking them all out because I didn't know where the information I needed to find was. + I felt pressure in my chest, I felt cold sweats and my heart starting beating really hard. I felt like crying and I felt annoyed and upset. I found what I needed and I closed that email. + I am sharing this with you, to show you how trauma works, after I read the emails, I felt like texting him and telling him something mean, there are some pending issues I have to check with him and I thought this was the best opportunity to blast at him. Although we have been really good and we have both been proactive in regards to our healing process, at that moment I just wanted to be a BITCH. + I caught myself right away and I was able to take a step back, take deep breaths and I noticed how my trauma got triggered by reading all of that mess that happened. + This is how our trauma gets triggered, my ancestors believed we hold trauma in our blood, its all part of our dna, at the time they understood this concept, they didn't have the technology to show "scientific" evidence, but this is something that has been proven today. + When we read, when we observe an event that brings us back to something traumatic we experienced (PTSD) + When we have either emotional or physical pain, and we observe other people sharing so happy about something we don't have, that will trigger our traumas. + I have been taking the time to learn about my traumas, to observe without reacting, because I have been in that space, where I was in constant triggered mode by things I read, I am still healing and its important for me to understand that healing has no expiration date and some days will be great and some days will be shitty. I do understand today that I can't be going out reflecting my trauma at people because that takes my power away and the power I have over my own life and my healing. + Continue below in comments. 👇🏾
Finally got to watch the movie Saand Ki Aankh (Bullseye) today 🎥 What an incredible story 👏👏👏 and a must watch for everyone 🎯 This movie is a tight slap on the faces of men who abuse women & term them & their traits as "aurat" & "aurton wale kaam" generalising them into stereotypical roles ✋; & an even tighter slap on the faces of women who try to bring their own tribe down by gossiping, discriminating & conspiring against them ✋ The #shooterdadi teach us an important life lesson that it is utmost important to stand up for yourself & live life on your own terms giving two hoots about people's opinion about you. It's your life and your decisions & anyone who has a problem with it, can go fly a kite 🤷♀️ . . . #saandkiaankh #bullseye #amustwatch #brilliant #movie #lifelessons #standupforyourself #saynotonegativity #saynotohaters #fightinjustice #selfrespect #livelifeonyourterms #dumptoxicpeople #stayawayfromnegativepeople
“Every woman is like a tea bag-u never know how strong she is until she gets in hot water"#woman #strongwomen#iamnotafeminist#
Ladies don't seek validation externally from the male gaze. But do consider if you're making false projections or this is a mutual understanding. < ya feel me > ok eye am going to sleep. Being a cat mom has been a lot lol 💚 #stop #callingme #thatshit #gracias
#DecolonizeResistExist + They shut the power off where I live. The whole town and surroundings of grass valley is shut down. Yesterday I was in town and I noticed some sort of a chaotic vibe. Lots of traffic. Long lines in the gas stations and shopping centers. My daughter and I were like “Wtf!” I had no idea. + I come home and find out pge sent out notifications that they are shutting the grid, to prevent fires. + It seems today a lot of people are in panic mode. I think it may be an experiment to see how humans behave if things like this were to happen. There is no wind. So no need to shut the grid. + I’m chill. I can access water in our home and we have food. We don’t know when they will turn it back on, but I’m not freaking out. We have plenty of candles, we use gas with propane so we can cook the eggs from my chickens, we have water. For me, this means I can’t really be on my phone (so I’m cheating for a moment) and can’t do computer stuff, that’s good. + I’ll be reading and writing. Enjoying some good medicine 🙅🏽♀️😉☘️
#DecolonizeResistExist + Did you know cbd from hemp is just a placebo? + In order for cbd to work in our bodies as medicine it HAS TO HAVE THC. + Hemp is a medicine for the earth, it can clean up the soil from toxins. Can be used as a clean combustible. We wouldn’t have to kill so many trees as we could use hemp for everything that wood or trees are used for. Paper. Fabric. Construction materials. And so much more. + Due to the fact that hemp is a bioaccumulator, which means it can be used as a way to remediate the soil. The fact that hemp cleans the soil from any toxins it means that those toxins go to the plant. Therefore the process to CLEAN and process hemp to extract cbd at the end DOESNT make it healthy for humans, nor it works as medicine. + I have done extensive research about this, as a farmer and a consumer as well. + Cbd from cannabis plants has helped me in so many ways and it’s surprising to me to see this whole frenzy about hemp, you can buy it pretty much anywhere, and the only reason why is because it doesn’t have the THC, but without that component it loses its powerful medicinal values. + I definitely see the many benefits of hemp as a way to clean the soil and as a way to remediate the damage we have done. Because hemp is way more sustainable than to use petroleum and its byproducts. + The information is out there, this isn’t a secret. The oil I use comes from cbd cannabis plants grown in our farm. + Btw all the oils that you see out there, all the pyramid scheme companies selling cbd are just a joke. It’s peoples own choice on whether they want to support that or not, I’m just sharing facts and it’s up to each individual to search for the truth, or not.
#DecolonizeResistExist + I will be releasing my new podcast today. I’m talking about “Spiritual Bypassing” + Throughout my time in this country. I have come across many people that hide their racism and discrimination against indigenous people and our practices by spreading “love & light” + Many people think that love will solve the oppression indigenous people face throughout the Americas. They claim “they were given permission” to oppress and abuse traditions that have been banned from us. + Gaslighting and judgment of character happens if we dare to speak up!! How could I be so angry? or How could I hold so much hatred in my heart? We all are one Pilar!!!!! + No people. WE ARE NOT ALL ONE!!! + The link for my podcast is on my bio. As well as other links for my offerings. +
#DecolonizeResistExist + I went to the dentist today and she told me my teeth are perfect. 😁 I have no cavities. I never had any fillings and I have all my teeth. Including my wisdom teeth. + She assumed I have kept regular visits to the dentist office and kept my cleanings on schedule. I laughed Jajajaja + I have never kept track of that. Last year I was able to get medical and I took advantage of this service to do “what I’m supposed to do” but for years and years I didn’t go to the dentist, I honestly can count the cleanings I have had in my whole life with the fingers of my two hands and I think it’s never been more than ten times 🤓🤪 I don’t even remember my parents were that good in taking me to the dentist either 🤷🏽♀️ + Anything that has to do with my good health and the positive aspects of who I am, I blame it on being indigenous and having good genes. I always say “oh it’s because I’m Mexica” 💁🏽♀️🙅🏽♀️🙋🏽♀️ + Truthfully it is because of that. I’m 42 years old and I can proudly say I have no cavities and I have never ever really took care of my teeth the way westernized society tells us we should do it. I did take care of them by following my intuition, by following a diet that was shown to me since the day I was born, but I also want to say that I drink beer at times and I like to drink Mexican coke from time to time and I love me some rancheritos too 😋🤤 and I smoke weed (never cigarettes though) + I don’t eat vegan nor vegetarian diets but I do follow a wholesome diet. I actually eat everything and I eat a lot. Like a lot. I can eat 20+ tacos at once. Love me some tacos 🌮🤤 + I wanted to share this because I do believe the reason why I’m healthy in every aspect of my life is because my genes are extraordinary, at the same time I have enjoyed life and I will continue to enjoy life. + Maybe what it is, is that in general people have disconnected from their physical bodies so much that they perpetuate systems of oppression to their bodies by following the colonial mindset that dictates every little thing of how we should live + I do have a chipped tooth and a gap and I would never ever get that fixed. It’s part of who I am. 🤓👹
#DecolonizeResistExist + Real life has been full. Lots of different changes in my life, and taking baby steps. + Winter is here so it’s a time of introspection and silence. Making things happen without forcing anything. + This time can also become very hectic around us. Forcing us to fall into domestications and programming that NO LONGER SERVES us as human species. + Everyday is a learning experience, we have been programmed to believe all these lies. But if you catch yourself falling for it, take a moment to reflect on how these ideas are actually outdated and continuing to support them will only bring the human extinction!!! + The time to EVOLVE IS HERE NOW!!! And it’s up to each one of us. + The time to be blaming “The Man” or “Those in Power” is an outdated human condition when we are also complicit. + This winter season should be a time to let go of those outdated ideas. We can’t longer accept that when the TRUTH IS OUT THERE + Follow my other account. @adecolonizationmovement I will be deleting this one soon.
#DecolonizeResistExist + My thoughts for today. + You know what’s mind blowing to me? To see people that use the idea of “family values” as a way to justify the celebration of thanksgiving. + “But it’s all about coming together as a family 🙄😒” I know family values in this country are nonexistent. This country HAS NO FAMILY (COMMUNITY) VALUES. So to use that as a justification is complete BULLSHIT. + Imagine that Germans and anyone who is descendant of Germans, had a celebration that started as a celebration for the holocaust, years passed and now that celebration morphed into a “celebration of love” (add sarcasm) + People today still celebrate and their excuse is that “today it has nothing to do with the holocaust, it’s just about German families to gather, to be jolly and merry” 🤦🏽♀️ That shit would be banned quick, because anything that has to do with Jewish people and their suffering has always been at the top of everything. They get a pass, even if it means Jewish people are perpetuating harm and oppression to others. + So why this country and it’s citizens, whether they are yt, brown or black think it’s okay to find a justification to celebrate GENOCIDE?!?!? + So today, while many of you are gonna find all the excuses as to why ITS OKAY to attend a dinner or a gathering. Know that you are celebrating the genocide and oppression of indigenous people who up to this day LIVE IN CONCENTRATION CAMPS in this country. + And for those who want to change the name to “Friendsgiving” or if you are vegan and think it’s a huge accomplishment to not kill a turkey and therefore you get a pass. NO! You all are idiots and it doesn’t matter if you change the name, if you are vegan, anyone that gives any attention to this day and gathers is gathering to celebrate the genocide of indigenous people. + While you enjoy your stupid dinner (which I hope makes you sick and gives you diarrhea for months) there are children in concentration camps, there are FAMILIES who have been separated and some of them don’t even know where their family members are. + So there you go! Fuck you and your fucking family values. + Jesus is watching you. Good ol’ US citizens 🖕🏾
#DecolonizeResistExist + My thoughts. What I think about almost every day! + Continue to be amazed at how Indigenous People to the lands we know as the USA are the least represented, the least to hold wealth in their own lands. + “Comprising less than 5% of the world's population, indigenous people protect 80% of global biodiversity.” NG + I can’t help to see the reality for my people. Speaking up about this hasn’t been easy, but I will continue to speak up! + I have lived that reality as an immigrant to this country. My experience and the experience of indigenous immigrants is the story less told and when I became aware of this I had to find my voice! + I’m glad I found it!
#DecolonizeResistExist + I’m feeling a sense of liberation within my heart and spirit. + This year was a very hard cycle for me, and I feel slowly the cycle is shifting. + Is it the cycle that is shifting or is it me? + Maybe is both. Maybe I’m just finding that sweet spot within myself. + After 42 years on this planet and after all the rich experiences I have had so far I better be making life easier not harder. + Check @adecolonizationmovement live video, I shared some deep truths. + Also check my highlights for the statement of what my work is about.
#DecolonizeResistExist + This past Saturday I celebrated 42 years of life. I feel the same way though 🤷🏽♀️ + I had a colonized experience and although I enjoyed my time away from home, it helped me to see I can’t really be part of colonized experiences nor I can be part of mainstream shit. + Mainstream experiences don’t fulfill my heart anymore. I was happy to see this as I know I sometimes glamorize things in my head and I feel that I still have to be part of this fucked up society one way or another, and this weekend I saw clearly how I don’t have to do anything that doesn’t fulfill my heart. + I’m a year older, wiser and I’m feeling very happy with myself. + My new year just started and I can’t wait for all the new things coming my way.
Grateful to be sharing the stage with so many amazing women last night at @highendmagazine’s #IBW2019 — an event that honors the achievements of 12 different Women Lighting the Way. To me, women empowerment has never been about competing with men for positions of authority/power—perhaps I owe it to my parents, who have taught me through their lives, what mutual service looks like. Real women empowerment acknowledges beauty in diversity (my deep appreciation for @catherinehindra for highlighting that yesterday), and encourages women to contribute in ways that are perhaps distinct to/different than men. So here is to celebrating femininity (not feminism) and what it stands for: gentleness, compassion, and a life of service. May we never seek the spotlight, but as many women had done all throughout history, only strive to pave and light the way for others to enjoy what lies ahead. #solideogloria #harikartini #iamnotafeminist
#DecolonizeResistExist + After 42 years of life I have realized that I am not perfect, and that's just how it is. It's not a bad thing; it's just what it is. Life is happening in front of me, and I have had to adjust accordingly. We all are a bit shattered. Pain and hardship will come our way, and whether we are aware of it or not, we create patterns that we may think are going to protect us. But it's just a way to keep us in fear. + I have a fear of failure, of not being good enough, not being able to share my passions with the people around me. I am afraid of never have the ability to let my heart shine. Whenever I find myself dwelling on this, I get anxiety. It starts as a warm feeling in my stomach, that will rise to my chest, with a massive pounding. It makes it hard to breathe, to think. All I want to do is cry, escape, crawl into my bed and never leave. + How can I share this with people? How would people look at me? It might seem I am a strong & confident person. It may seem I have my shit together in every aspect of my life. But the truth is I don't, and at times I feel broken. But even with all the fear and pain, I may have. Today I feel stronger than ever; my life is not perfect, but I wouldn't change anything, life is good, and this experience is showing me how getting out of my comfort zone it's not a bad thing, on the contrary. I am learning how to deal with my demons, instead of just hiding them under the rug and pretend that everything is okay. + Perfect happiness is our birthright, but we must work at it continuously, today and every day I choose happiness because avoiding happiness is not the road to happiness. I choose to believe only the best about myself. I am learning to love & accept myself without condition. I am whole and complete. +
#DecolonizeResistExist + The traditions that many “spiritual” white people are practicing today belong to people who were colonized by white People and continue to be oppressed by them. + The people who are being rallied TODAY across the usa by this patriarchal white supremacy system are indigenous people, whose traditions practiced by white people, run in their blood. Yet they can’t perform their traditions nor they can host cacao ceremonies to connect with their hearts while ICE (nazis) are trying to return them back to where they come from. Although these are their lands. + This is the hypocrisy of white people who think they are entitled to practice and profit from traditions that don’t belong to them. “But cacao changed my life, because it helped me connect with my heart” (please add annoying white peoples voice. You know what I mean jajajajaj) + This is “CULTURAL GENOCIDE” we are losing our traditions because they are being white washed. All these mixed traditions. Cacao, Tantra, Yoga, Ayahuasca and all these other things white People do in order to SELL and CAPITALIZE. + I will be recording another podcast talking about “CULTURAL GENOCIDE” + This is something that personally affects me as I see stupid white people profiting from the traditions MY PEOPLE created. So yes these traditions belong to my people not to white people. + It’s important to note that there is people of color who also appropriate traditions that don’t belong to them. This isn’t just for white people. I know many people of color who do this. This is why I let go of teaching yoga. I couldn’t be speaking about this while adopting a tradition which doesn’t belong to my ancestry. + TAG any accounts that might need to read this. ✊🏾
#DecolonizeResistExist + Real life has been full. Lots of different changes in my life, and taking baby steps. + Winter is here so it’s a time of introspection and silence. Making things happen without forcing anything. + This time can also become very hectic around us. Forcing us to fall into domestications and programming that NO LONGER SERVES us as human species. + Everyday is a learning experience, we have been programmed to believe all these lies. But if you catch yourself falling for it, take a moment to reflect on how these ideas are actually outdated and continuing to support them will only bring the human extinction!!! + The time to EVOLVE IS HERE NOW!!! And it’s up to each one of us. + The time to be blaming “The Man” or “Those in Power” is an outdated human condition when we are also complicit. + This winter season should be a time to let go of those outdated ideas. We can’t longer accept that when the TRUTH IS OUT THERE
#DecolonizeResistExist + Been off social media. My life doesn’t stop nor my work, but I needed to shift my energy from these spaces. Social media is a double edge sword. I’m thankful for the amazing connections I have made, but the good thing about those connections is that we don’t need this space to connect with each other. I’m looking to create more personal connections. + At the same time social media spaces do create a delusional idea and it is affecting the way we interact with people and ourselves. I’m tired of seeing all the fakeness, bullshit and hypocrisy that prevails in these spaces. + I have been working as you can see. I literally woke up. Put on my birth suit 😉 and Im harvesting my beautiful girls. We also harvested 80 pounds of apples!!! 🍎 + I have been working a lot, yesterday we received the news the state approved our annual license!!!!!👊🏾🙅🏽♀️ it’s been many years working towards this, and I feel a huge sense of accomplishment, specially because it’s hard to function in this society and yet I achieved something in this society by doing it my way and it feels fucking amazing!!! + I feel 2020 is coming with full force and I needed to reclaim my sovereignty away from all this delusional thinking. I needed to put in action what I preach and be in total mastery of myself so I can do my work without falling into these illusions. + A lot of shifts, all my writings are going to be on my Patreon and my podcast will have a new episode by November 1st. These last two months of this colonized calendar are coming in full force for me. I feel way more focused and I’m not getting sidetracked by any bullshit. 🙅🏽♀️ + I will continue to use this space, but it’s definitely going to be very different. + Have a beautiful day. We got the power back but only for one day, they are shutting it off tomorrow til Monday, so need to get back to work.
#DecolonizeResistExist # Because without my rage I wouldn’t have known how to stand up for myself. + I embrace my rage no matter if people feel uncomfortable. +
#DecolonizeResistExist + I have been pondering as to why people in general (yt and poc) think it’s important to use the word shamanic to sell spirituality. Why people think is extremely important they are seen as “shamans” to be taken more seriously or for people to believe if they are “shamans” they are definitely going to “heal me” + The fact that people have used this word to create fakeness and sell lies, makes me not want to be considered a Shaman. I stay away of anything that becomes part of the status quo mainstream brainwashing lies. + I’m not a shaman and I will never ever want to be considered a shaman. Wow!! What a fucking responsibility for people having to pretend all the fucking time. I mean if all these so called “shamans” are part of reality, are complicit with the systems of oppression, are part of the problem (like all of us) I don’t think those people have anything to teach me. You see I go out and I learn more from the homeless, “dangerous”people, hurt people, alcoholic, drug abusers and all the misfits out there than from any “shaman” that can do fucking rituals and ceremony, charges me money and I don’t see they are actually doing the actual work + Being a shaman today is bluff and fake shit. I’m not a shaman. I’m a curandera a witch not a good witch sometimes and sometimes I’m good. It all depends. I don’t heal anyone nor I will do rituals and mandala flowers to tell you this is the way to connect with yourself. If I were to tell you, you need something external to create that I would be selling lies. + Life is a ritual constantly. We live in ceremony connecting with our dark or light. But it happens everyday. It’s okay. We need to get in touch with that. + I don’t need anything external connect with myself. It’s all in me. I have done all the rituals, ceremonies, flower mandalas, followed emails that I got about that new moon ritual to attract love 😆😂😝 + I have tried it all. I’m 42 years old. At this time I can tell you. It’s all in here. Yes! We have lost track and we just need to get back to that. But believe me. Don’t buy into the lies of everybody with the label as “shaman” it’s corrupted now.
#DecolonizeResistExist + If anyone would ask me What’s your goal? I would say: + “I hope one day every human being would be able to achieve self mastery” + I believe once we are able to achieve that as Individuals we wouldn’t accept the programming, oppression, division and bullshit this society has given us for way too long. + Have a good weekend. My podcast will be released later today.
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#DecolonizeResistExist + Very pertinent at this moment in this country. + Specially when white spiritual liberal people think they are all about “love and unity” + But truth is that “love and unity” only applies to those who can afford to be in their PRIVILEGED spaces. + At this moment every single white person is benefiting from the effects of colonialism and the enslavement of people of color. + Picture by @redhornwoman
#DecolonizeResistExist + It seems people don’t seem to understand that no matter how much we speak up. No matter how much we want to jerk each other off on social media, thinking we are creating a change (even though we are supporting it by using these tools who are oppressive as fuck) + Nothing is going to change while we support this capitalistic system. I support it. We all do. No matter if we think we are such good “activists” jajajajaj + We won’t be able to create any change within the same system that created it all. +
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#DecolonizeResistExist + Every day is a battle. For realz!! + Be thankful for what you have. Be thankful for your journey. Most likely if you have a smartphone you have access to many privileges many people don’t have. + Everyone’s experience is valid. (Except when they are entitled assholes 😝🤷🏽♀️🙅🏽♀️) + Have a good night. Tomorrow we are not having power again. Let’s see for how long it goes. I’m ready to slow down.
#DecolonizeResistExist + We can’t change anything external to us before we look within ourselves first. + ....and FYI social media “activism” is fake. Only selling more division and hate to the masses. When I see a bunch of privileged people of color talking about the suffering of people with no privileged, I can’t take them seriously. Acquiring followers and likes in the name of “activism” is only a performative way “to seem to care.” While they live a very comfy life, when I see many traveling all over the world but then again they seem to care about others suffering right?!?! Oh! But when white people do something “wrong” they are ready to attack and tell them how they are perpetuating white supremacy, it’s always easy to judge others than take a look at ourselves. + Check out my NEW article on my Patreon page. Link in bio. + Check my other page @adecolonizationmovement to learn more about my work.
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