|Quality: 1080p||Release date: July 6, 2018|
|Keywords: –||Genres: Comedy, Drama|
|Duration: 117 min||Original title: 我不是药神|
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#onthisday #about2yearsago This shirt you told me not to wear. You’d be so disappointed in my #kish2k18 attire. #movingon Today, Day 312 Memories All I have are memories... How depressing is that?!?! It’s not a day that goes by that I don’t check Facebook as if your gonna comment from heaven... I will admit the on this day is the best thing, the comments the likes from you still warm my heart... Man, my reality no you ever again. Memories, only memories... Although to the world it may seem like you never existed I’ll never let your comforting spirit die. All the “remember when” moments or Grandma would be like... Can you come back if only for a second??? I need like really need to talk to you about so many things I probably cried nonstop the last 12 hours... I’ve cried for you for 311 days. I can’t believe my body is able to produce so many tears. It’s like I’m facing so much since you left... we’re facing so much. We all miss you! This week no you no him... I can’t deal. Loss is tough. #loss ? #grief I will cherish every moment every second with those I love... you just never know. Any given moment could be the last time literally any given moment, now may be the last. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
when you wonder why I can’t just “move on” or “get over it” this, this is why... nobody loved or prayed for me like my mother & I’m so broken I can’t pray for my own son let alone myself... #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel
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More photos from Saturday’s book expo, I met some amazing folks #EmotionalTestosterone #wordsleftunspoken
Today, Day 291 Abuse 1 year 8 months.... 621 days I’ve been abused. Abuse comes in many forms it’s not always physical. It’s amazing how a narcissist can play mind games and be successful... even the strongest women, as I would like to consider myself, fall prey to narcissistic people. We will give and give our all to a person and receive such little in return. Yet, we never stop giving... Fools. We live in hope. The accusations when they are actually the ones doing everything they are accusing you of... I could go on and on... but I’ll stop here before I really overshare. It’s time to wake up. It’s time I wake up. I wish I could call my mother and tell her how stupid I’ve been and get some advice hell a hug as my tears fall but again I can’t... #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
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Today, Day 280 3 Words Ma, our 1st annual balloon release... Daddy even lead us in prayer... sending you love notes to heaven... You’re gone but never ever forgotten. ?⚱️??? ????????? “We miss you” “We love you” ? ???????? #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give... #lupus #lupusawareness
Today, Day 272 (Pacific Standard Time) Quality Time Yesterday I had a major breakdown - 1st I went wig shopping thinking about how I used to go with my mama and would be so irritated cause she’d take forever. Then I was thinking if she were alive I wouldn’t even be wearing wigs. On top of that I wanted to ask her if I looked pretty, if it looked too fake, if I had it on right, if it look like a wig & I could just imagine her saying Tikisha it is a wig so yeah it look like one. 2nd I went to see MaKaylin go to prom... a family function, the harsh reality my mama’s loud self won’t be at any functions any more. I was thinking wow you’re not here MaKaylin’s grandma isn’t here... this is our reality. Death. Fast forward to today I was waiting for my mama’s call but I knew it wasn’t gonna come... I just wanted to hear it’s nice outside Tikisha let’s go for a ride or let’s sit in the backyard... I’m going to your Aintee house so we can sit in the yard... something, but I got nothing. I was sad, really sad. I just wanted to lay in bed all day, didn’t even care it was warm and sunny... but my family said it’s about quality time so I pushed and had a good day. It’s a daily battle. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Today, Day 282 You gonna answer that? I was never really this person my mother was one of the closest people to me... then the 2016 shift came... we spent less and less time together & I spent more and more time with my friends. As a single teen mom I really poured my life into my son... running the streets wasn’t really an option for me. I never wanted him to go without or suffer cause he only had me. I wanted to give him my same upbringing & my parents gave me everything I asked for except a Geo Tracker oh and a Spelman education. I was so mad!! Anyway, I was all about him & my money. Period! It felt really good to finally start to do things for myself. I swear #AllSummer16 was thee absolute best... from going to every event to leaving the country for the first time. Yet, what I didn’t know were my days with my mom were numbered... time, time I can’t get back. I’m not sure what I would have done differently but each day I’m faced with this regret... to get one more phone call... a visit... anything. I know everybody may not have a bestie in their mom, but still... make amends, cherish her. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
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It's tough to make a trade between law and humanity #dyingtosurvive
Today, Day 284 Lupus Awareness This picture makes me emotional... it shows your strength but I still see your weakness. You’re clearly sick here, but in normal Dot fashion you’re all dolled up pushing through life... My goal is to be 1/2 the woman you were. Your faith and strength knowing the problems you dealt with, and not just with your sickness, surpassed all expectations. I miss you. I still cry for you daily. I love you. I wear purple, your favorite color, everyday for you but tomorrow it’ll be for a cause. #PutOnPurple #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Today, Day 316 Back in Time I continue to cry for you... Yesterday we were with Daddy and he had the air conditioner on frozen. He didn’t care that we were icicles. I told Tiffani I just want my mama she was like she couldn’t do shit and we laughed ...the memories... Daddy would have just froze us all out but it would have been better to just laugh and talk with you about his stubborn ass. I can hear you now “You just like him”. Your voice... the voice I barely remember... shit this is real fuck my life you’re gone forever.... This sucks but I keep going ...I smile I cry I laugh I sob... I keep going. I just wish I could go back in time but time keeps going. I’m sure we all have the same wish. I look at Daddy and see the emptiness in him. memories... we smile, we laugh, we cry, we regret goals... smile a little more, regret a little less #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
my truth ...facts ?...love my mama ? #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel
Today, Day 314 “You deserve it” What does that phrase we use so loosely mean to you????????? “You deserve better Kish” heard it 1001 times ? thoughts inside my head ? wants are not needs and what you need may not be what you want and wants for sure aren’t necessarily what you deserve and thinking you always deserve the best is... well IMO dumb, karma skips no one | nobody is perfect we’ve all done some fucked up shit as my mama said “Why not me God” she never ever, not once got mad about her health deteriorating and of course we (her family) all felt she didn’t deserve it but who are we? Psalm 103:10 (KJV) He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. Thank You, Lord for not giving me what I deserve, but being merciful and gracious... Period. These last 10 months have been terrible for my family & close loved ones but we must keep going... no matter what life throws us we keep shooting our shots... Swish! #thepublicjournal #dyingtosurvive
Today, Day 319 Selfie Day It’s not much to say... I miss my mom. I’m aggravated, wish I could talk to her about my frustration but I can’t... #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Today, Day 289 Memes I love memes. They give me life. I can literally laugh for hours at them mugs... I’m such a simple boring girl. I can go from laughing to damn to double damn... this one is a double damn. I swear this was my mama. I am a very private person and those I choose to tell things to no matter big or small I hate to hear it being repeated. If I say the movie was good don’t go around saying Kish said the movie was good bruh that was only for you to know... I be so irritated on the inside... Kish Khronicles. My mama ass couldn’t hold water. I would be like ma don’t tell nobody. When I say I miss her I miss her so much. The simple things - should I get braids or no... I can’t even get her feedback on. The huge things - parenting... I can’t get her feedback on. I swear this is the hardest thing for me to accept; no mama ever again. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Artists: Livin' Illegal Song: Dying To Survive Album: Married To The Game Year: 1997 Label: Hollow Point Records #livinillegal #marriedtothegame #hiphop #rap #realhiphop #realrap #hollowpointrecords #oldschoolhiphop #oldschoolrap #Classic #underrated #undergroundhiphop #gangsta #theinfamoustaylo #undergroundrap #Houston #Texas #htown #southernhiphop #90s #1997 #90srap #90shiphop
Today, Day 309 damn 56 days until 365 Deadpool 2... I liked the movie but I was not prepared for the storyline... revenge based on death of loved ones. I was torn... I wanted to leave but I wanted to stay to finish the movie. Death never fazed me before but now the thought of someone dying is heartbreaking, even in a fictional movie... like I cried, couldn’t stop. Death is so final. Then that moment when Deadpool saw his girlfriend in his dream... I still hope each and every day to see my mother again if only for 60 seconds, to hear her voice, to touch her. I cannot believe this is my life, my mama is dead... no more appearances EVER. #memorablemoviequotes Pain is a history teacher and a fortune teller... we can’t really live until we die a little. Here’s to trying to live in your absence. ? #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give... #deadpool2 #moviedates
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The movie of the year#我不是药神 #dyingtosurvive
most days it’s crying & breaking down ? #imissmymama
Great movie. Some kinda like Dallas Buyers Club but full of Chinese reality. #dyingtosurvive
This is such a good movie everyone needs to watch this chinese film. Incredible film. Best chinese film this year. Most meaningful story.
Today, Day 301 I am that chic It’s Sunday... beginning of the week, hardest day of the week, the day my mother passed. Today (as usual) I’m missing you tremendously. I can’t deal. I want to call you and ask you where did I go wrong... how do I fix it... I’m seriously close to catching a murder case and I keep telling myself nobody is worth that. The anger and frustration is at its maximum. I’m praying... I need something to change fast... I’m scared of where I’m heading and without your guidance I’m not the ticking time bomb I’m exploding. I keep busy to try not to think about all the things in my life that just are a mess... an idle mind an idle mind. All bad. My thoughts are all over the place from mama... my family... social media... 2 Thessalonians 3:10 if any man will not work, neither let him eat A word to the unwise You’re given all these tools to succeed, your failures are your own either you keep trying or you lay there dying a slow death... a future of regrets My thoughts are all over the place from mama... my family... social media... The funny thing about perception is although 95% of what I post is directly related to me I’m perceived as living a certain kind of lifestyle, like I’m happy and/or having fun... Don’t envy my pics... I’m busy. I’m blah. Blah Busy... far from happy. It’s always something behind the scenes and it’s not always as great as the photos look... people don’t post the negative. Social media is the fake life, the lies... me yeah no I’m very transparent but private at the same time... My emotions are up and down more than average person... my journal is not for attention it’s to let maybe even if only one person to know you’re not alone... life isn’t perfect but we overcome. I am that chic. You’re the chic. The overcoming, pushing through, taking it one day at a time on the road to happiness chic. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...